Friday, May 8, 2009

Late night

I'm learning alot.   The more i reflect on my life and the more i talk to other people, i am seeing and remembering things that i thought about before but didnt have a chance to think about in the past couple years.  

For example, in the big picture, how miniscule is our time on earth.  It it quite literally a speck in terms of eternal life.  and it's funny how I get so caught up in trivial things.  Like grades, career, and my future.  The more and more i think about all this stuff, i realize that God is calling me to put my trust in him.    Romans 8:28 - and we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.

If you love God, God will take care of you.  That doesn't mean that He will immediately gratify your every wish, but He will look out for you.  Everyday i feel like I come to peace with this, but it seems that every morning i wake up, im fighting the same fight to feel at peace, to know that God is in control of my life.

But no matter what happens, God is good...All the TIME.  whether or not you're doing well in school, being accused of something you didnt do, having your harddrive crash and losing all your pictures and documents, or anything else.  and yes my harddrive crashed and Andrew Park Photography pictures are all gone. except on facebook.  but its okay, i just gota start over and refill my new harddrive(courtesy of apple care) with new pictures of beautiful people.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Hello.

Hello,

These days i'm going through a "depression" phase.  Alot of things feel like they are piling up on me, and i guess its breaking me down little by little.  One thing that has REALLY been pestering me is, as many of you know, my issues with a (false) allegation of academic dishonesty.

    Pretty much, i was just going over my notes right before the midterm, and i stuck the notes under my chair when the test started.  After like 20-30 minutes i went to ask a TA a question, and after getting my question answered, my TA requested that i sit in the back row instead of schooching all the way back in my original crowded row.  At the end of the 1 hour 30 min test, the teacher was going up the aisles to pick up the last tests, when she saw notes under my original seat.  She thought the kid next to me was using them, but he denied that the notes were his.  So she asked whose notes were on the ground, and i told her they were mine.  She then proceeded to report me to the academic integrity office.  

thankfully, amos(the genius) came over and helped me on my  "case" for like 5 hours.  We made some legitimate arguments, but we realized that if the teacher forgets some facts on the hearing date, and unintentionally or intenionally fabricates the story (i.e. "i saw andrew looking at his notes") then im pretty much screwed.

But through all this chaos and unnecessary crap, i think God is really showing me things.  Growing up  i was always the kid that always pushed the limit until my mom or dad had to spank me.  And i think i'm like the same way with God.  I don't listen to Him, until something bad happens to me, and then i turn to God.   

First, i think God is telling me to reevaluate what's important in my life.  I think because my academics and my career were someting i have confidence and security in, God wanted me to rely more on him instead of putting my trust in my own abilities.  It is true that God wants us to do our best in school, but i think when we make School/grades/job/ an idol, it makes God not happy.   
        Secondly, i'm learning a bit more about how beautiful grace is.  I was thinking about my hearing(academic dishonesty) and i was imagining how crappy i would feel if the board deemed me guilty.  But after, i thought about when God is going to judge us.  Imagine you standing in front of God, and He's like, "Andrew, you have committed this sin, this sin......etc., and the wages of sin is death".  I think that would feel like 999999999999999999 to the 99999th  power worse.  Being condemned to eternal darkness, hopelessness, depression, pain, suffering, and loneliness.   But there is good news.  REALLY good news.  Jesus covers all the crap we did.  EVERYTHING.   there's no middle ground.  You either have all your charges of sin dropped, or you have them still claiming your life.  
Honestly i probably heard about salvation like 600 times, but for some reason, when i really thought about what Jesus did on the cross it made me realize how lucky i was.  and i think it took something like what happened to me to realize how beautiful the cross is.  

I suck at writing.  I'm prolly going to read this later and realize that this post is really incoherent, but hopefully Jesus shines through this post.  And just to clarify, im not literally depressed, its just a feeling of being lost and broken, which usually turns out to be a good thing in the end.  but the process of being lost and broken sucks.  anyways 6 more weeks of school left! including finals!

-andrewparkphotography

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Mok-Jang New Year's Party

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This kid is a girl.
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The girl in the white said she wanted to marry the boy on the right.
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Random pic of my brother opening presents on christmas.

Getty Center

Getty Center has really nice architecture. I think the getty center also has pictures and figurines made by dead/old people. You should check it out. Its free admission (but $10 flat-rate parking) and theres a tram ride too.

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That man stayed in this position for like 10 minutes during his phone call.
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Andrewparkphotography x Andrewparkmodeling aka Jiral

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Eunice Chung is a baller.

Mastercard may say that there are somethings that money can't buy, but money can buy you a Spanish conquistadors mansion. 8 bedrooms, 4 bathrooms, 5 living rooms, a miniature zoo boasting the only private lion exhibition in california, a 50 car garage, and a helicopter pad.
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This is their "guest house" which is bigger than some regular houses ive seen.

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One of their living rooms.
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Old School phone.

At Pastor Dayean's

Pastor D.
Pastor D was our youth pastor until he went to Korea and found a wife. Now he resides in whittier and serves as a youth pastor at a local church. This was the meeting of the original GLKC/MCC'ers.

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